It has gotten cold and I rather don't like it. Where was fall? It went from being a record high summer, all hot all the time to cold and yucky. Oh well, I remind myself that I am safe and secure from the elements, my job doesn't even require me to be outside working, so no whining allowed! Yet, the grouchies linger and I can attribute them mostly to the weather.
I am ready for Thanksgiving and have enjoyed my own self-imposed 30 days of stating what I am thankful for on Facebook. Some are deep, some are superficial - but true (like coffee!).
D has been working out with the same training as the Navy Seals. We are soon to be one of those couples where people ponder about how I got so darned lucky - not that they don't already, but it is becoming even more obvious! I am working on it though, my sendentary lifestyle (desk job, dissertation, mom disguised as taxi cab) does not lend to lots of activity, but I am trying to be more aware of what I put in my mouth and trying to move more.
Dissertation work is moving along I am happy to report. I have been collecting articles and books like it was my job (if only that paid!!) and will be doing some productive writing over the next 2 weeks. My current goal is to have my first draft of the proposal done by the first week of January...which is really not that far away.
Kids are gearing up for competitions and conventions, at least 2 of them are. I will be spending ridiculous amounts of time at these events I am sure and spending far too much money on eating out, registration fees, etc. They will have a ball though and are only young once and I am going to enjoy and try not to grouse about the money and time. I am proud of their abilities and am going to support their passions.
A good friend (who reads this but NEVER comments;) is going through a hard time and my heart breaks for her. She deserves happiness more than about anyone I know and it just seems to evade her best efforts. For prayer warriors who read, please join me in praying for N, she is one of my best friends and I wish I could make it all right.
I continue to see sadness every day around the world as I try to stay informed about what is going on globally, especially as it pertains to women and children. It is hard to stay focused on the positives when there are so many negatives. But, I know there are so many people working to do wonderful things in a selfless manner and I choose to focus on what they are doing and to contribute in whatever manner I can (prayers, $, spreading the word).
Until next time,
CC
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Identity Crisis
Yes, it has been 6 months since I have visited. I could provide a million excuses, but let's just suffice it to say that life has been its usually busy self - on fast forward. So, let's do a quick recap for my own memory's sake.
The kids finished their first school year wonderfully, this area is good for them for sure. Meesta is now on the competitive men's gymnastics team at our local gym - he is doing amazing and his little body is changing right in front of our eyes. Such a wonderful and handsome little guy. Doodle is on the performance team for gymnastics and has also taken a strong interest in sewing, for which we have hired someone to teach her given that I am completely inept in that area. Shenzy is doing wonderfully, also sprouting right up but also seemingly so little too. She is on the competitive dance team and is also learning to play the violin - she has lots of talent in her little self. They are all just amazing kids and I am so blessed that I am their mom.
D is doing great, the congregation has welcomed us and especially him with lots of love - and food! He continues to be my biggest supporter, my best friend, and all that other gooey stuff. He is simply amazing and I wish our happiness for every marriage.
Me, I have finally finished all the coursework for my PhD - what a long road, 3 years of essentially nonstop classes (1 week break between quarters really doesn't count as a break in my opinion)! I am now trying to buckle down and get the dissertation written. I am such a deadline person, it has been hard for me to work on it and I have rather enjoyed the lack of stress and constant due dates for homework. Just in the last 2 weeks I have started kicking it into gear, finally! I really want to be done in 2011, so I must press on as there are lots of waiting periods and I need to stay on top of this to get it done.
Now, for the identify crisis. Despite all the positives above, I am still very discontent. I am ready for a new daily purpose. My work provides the needs, but I am lacking that internal drive to keep doing what I am forever. I need more purpose. I want to take my passions for international development work, especially with women and children, to the next level and make it my career. This is a huge jump and I am nervous, but I know that deep down, I am nearing the end of my tolerance for my current role. The superficiality and nonsense are a struggle to deal with. The importance of what I am doing seem to be lost and I am ready for meaning in my career.
OK, all for now, hopefully I will be here more often.
*I am presently praying fervently for a child in Haiti named Kephania. She is an orphan and is very ill. She has captured my heart.
Life is Good...but I can make it better!
CC
The kids finished their first school year wonderfully, this area is good for them for sure. Meesta is now on the competitive men's gymnastics team at our local gym - he is doing amazing and his little body is changing right in front of our eyes. Such a wonderful and handsome little guy. Doodle is on the performance team for gymnastics and has also taken a strong interest in sewing, for which we have hired someone to teach her given that I am completely inept in that area. Shenzy is doing wonderfully, also sprouting right up but also seemingly so little too. She is on the competitive dance team and is also learning to play the violin - she has lots of talent in her little self. They are all just amazing kids and I am so blessed that I am their mom.
D is doing great, the congregation has welcomed us and especially him with lots of love - and food! He continues to be my biggest supporter, my best friend, and all that other gooey stuff. He is simply amazing and I wish our happiness for every marriage.
Me, I have finally finished all the coursework for my PhD - what a long road, 3 years of essentially nonstop classes (1 week break between quarters really doesn't count as a break in my opinion)! I am now trying to buckle down and get the dissertation written. I am such a deadline person, it has been hard for me to work on it and I have rather enjoyed the lack of stress and constant due dates for homework. Just in the last 2 weeks I have started kicking it into gear, finally! I really want to be done in 2011, so I must press on as there are lots of waiting periods and I need to stay on top of this to get it done.
Now, for the identify crisis. Despite all the positives above, I am still very discontent. I am ready for a new daily purpose. My work provides the needs, but I am lacking that internal drive to keep doing what I am forever. I need more purpose. I want to take my passions for international development work, especially with women and children, to the next level and make it my career. This is a huge jump and I am nervous, but I know that deep down, I am nearing the end of my tolerance for my current role. The superficiality and nonsense are a struggle to deal with. The importance of what I am doing seem to be lost and I am ready for meaning in my career.
OK, all for now, hopefully I will be here more often.
*I am presently praying fervently for a child in Haiti named Kephania. She is an orphan and is very ill. She has captured my heart.
Life is Good...but I can make it better!
CC
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